Yesterday's Embers (Clayburn Novels Book 3) Read online

  Yesterday’s Embers

  Deborah Raney

  Contents

  Title Page

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41

  Chapter 42

  Chapter 43

  Chapter 44

  Chapter 45

  Chapter 46

  Chapter 47

  Dear Reader

  Discussion Questions

  About the Author

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  Remember to Forget

  This novel was first published in 2008, under the same title, by Howard Books/Simon & Schuster, Inc.

  © Copyright 2016 Deborah Raney.

  ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

  No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted to any form or by any means—electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise without prior written permission from Raney Day Press.

  Scripture quotations are taken from the Holy Bible, New International Version®. Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society. Used by permission of Zondervan. All rights reserved. Scripture taken from the New King James Version®. Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson. Used by permission. All rights reserved.

  This novel is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. All characters are fictional and any similarity to people living or dead is purely coincidental.

  Published by Raney Day Press.

  Cover and interior design by Ken Raney.

  Printed in the United States of America.

  Created with Vellum

  To Jenica,

  our precious “daughter-in-love”

  Welcome to the family!

  Hear my prayer, O Lord;

  let my cry for help come to you.

  Do not hide your face from me when I am in distress.

  Turn your ear to me; when I call, answer me quickly.

  Psalm 102:1-2, niv

  Be glad, O people of Zion,

  rejoice in the Lord your God,

  for he has given you the autumn rains in righteousness.

  He sends you abundant showers,

  both autumn and spring rains, as before.

  The threshing floors will be filled with grain;

  the vats will overflow with new wine and oil.

  “I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten….”

  Joel 2:23-25, niv

  Prologue

  Thanksgiving Day

  “You sure you guys’ll be okay?” Doug DeVore leaned over the sofa to plant a kiss on his wife’s lips.

  But Kaye turned her head, and his lips landed somewhere in the vicinity of her left ear.

  “Sorry, babe.” She wrinkled her nose and put a hand over her mouth. “You’d better not kiss me. My stomach’s feeling a little woozy this morning. I never should have shared that milkshake with Rachel. I’m afraid I’m coming down with whatever she has.” Kaye looked down at their six-year-old, asleep in the crook of her arm.

  The car horn tooted from the garage, and a second later Sarah appeared in the kitchen doorway. “C’mon, Daddy, hurry up! Landon’s bein’ bossy, and Kayeleigh says she’s gonna walk to Grandma’s if you don’t get the lead out.”

  “You tell Landon to cut it out, and tell Kayeleigh to hold her horses and quit sassing.” He gave Kaye what he hoped was a desperate frown. “Sure you don’t want me to stay home with you?”

  She narrowed her eyes. “Don’t even think about it, buster.” She turned her pretty face to the hearth, where the first fire of the season crackled like brittle leaves underfoot. “But, hey, thanks for the fire.”

  “Yeah, well, I just wish I could be here to keep it going.” He wriggled his brows, making sure she got his innuendo.

  She laughed. “Real subtle…and I’ll take you up on that offer once I get rid of whatever this crud is I’m coming down with. In the meantime, I think I know how to keep a fire going.” She imitated his eyebrow gymnastics.

  He smoothed a hand over her tousled hair. “I had Landon bring in some wood, but if you run out, there’s a dry stack on the porch.” He went over and checked the damper. Man, what he wouldn’t give to call Kaye’s mother and bow out of Thanksgiving for all of them. Sit here by the fire with a good book and watch the game later without Kaye’s brother giving his obnoxious play-by-play.

  He sighed. That would never fly. Kaye’s mom had no doubt been cooking for days. And Thanksgiving was always the last time they got together with Harriet before she headed to Florida for the winter. Besides, if he stayed home, dinner was likely to be a sleeve of stale saltines and a can of Campbell’s tomato soup that he heated up himself.

  With visions of the usual dinner table mayhem, Harley in her highchair flinging soup all over the kitchen––and Kaye too sick to supervise––he reconsidered. “I’ll bring a couple of plates home for you two.”

  “Uh-huh…that’s what I thought.” Kaye laughed and he knew she’d read his mind. As she always could.

  He reached down to brush a wisp of hair off Rachel’s forehead. “Man…she feels hot.”

  His wife gave a knowing nod. “I don’t think this little angel is going to be eating anything any time soon. But bring a plate home just in case.”

  Kaye had been up all night with Rachel while Doug played possum through the sounds of his daughter’s retching. A twinge of guilt nipped at his conscience now.

  Kaye tugged at his sleeve. “Make sure Harley wears her hat if the kids take her outside. I don’t want her getting sick too.”

  “I will.” He grabbed his jacket off the back of a kitchen chair and started for the garage.

  “Hey, you…”

  He turned back at Kaye’s voice.

  “I like lots of whipped cream on my pumpkin pie.” She dared to wink at him.

  “Excuse me, I thought you were sick.”

  She smiled. “Not that sick.”

  The door to the garage opened again and Sadie, Sarah’s twin, popped her blond head in. “Da-aad, hurry up. Harley’s fussin’…”

  He gave Kaye a hopeful grin. “You sure you don’t want me to stay home, babe?”

  Pulling Rachel closer, Kaye cocked an eyebrow his way. “So you can help me clean up vomit, you mean?”

  He stuffed an arm through his coat sleeve. “I’m going, I’m going.” Talk about
the lesser of two evils.

  “Love you,” Kaye called after him.

  Her soft laughter followed him out the door, and he couldn’t help but smile to himself.

  The woman was right about one thing: she knew how to keep a fire going.

  Chapter 1

  The parade of taillights smoldered crimson through the patchy fog hovering over Old Highway 40. Mickey Valdez tapped the brakes with the toe of her black dress pumps, trying to stay a respectable distance from the car in front of her.

  The procession had left the church almost twenty minutes ago, but they were still barely two miles outside Clayburn’s city limits. The line of cars snaked up the hill––if you could call the road’s rolling incline that––and ahead of her, the red glow of brake lights dotted the highway, flickering off and on like so many fireflies. Cresting the rise, Mickey could barely make out the rows of pewter-colored gravestones poking through the mist beyond the wrought-iron gates of the Clayburn Cemetery.

  She smoothed the skirt of her black crepe dress and tried to focus her thoughts on maneuvering the car, working not to let them stray to the funeral service she’d come from. But when the first hearse turned onto the cemetery’s gravel drive in front of her, she lost it. Her sobs came like dry heaves, producing no tears, and for once, she was glad to be in the car alone.

  The line of cars came almost to a standstill as the second hearse crept through the gates.

  The twin black Lincolns pulled to the side of the gravel lane, parking one behind the other near the plots where two fresh graves scarred the prairie. The drivers emerged from the hearses, walked in unison to the rear of their cars, and opened the curtained back doors. Mickey looked away. She couldn’t view those two caskets again.

  When it came her turn to drive over the culvert under the high arch of the iron gates, she wanted desperately to keep on driving. To head west and never turn back. But Pete Truesdell stood in her way, directing traffic into the fenced-in graveyard. Mickey almost didn’t recognize Pete. He sported a rumpled navy double-breasted suit instead of his usual coveralls. How he could see through the tears welling in his eyes, Mickey didn’t know.

  Her heart broke for the old man. She wondered if he was related to the family somehow. Seemed like everybody in Clayburn was related to at least one other family in town. Everybody but the Valdezes.

  Pete waved the car in front of her through the gates and halted her with his other hand.

  Maybe if she stayed in the car until the procession left the cemetery. She didn’t want to walk across the uneven sod. Didn’t want to risk the DeVore kids seeing her…risk breaking down in front of them. What would she say? What could anybody say to make what had happened be all right?

  She didn’t know much about carbon monoxide poisoning, but she’d heard that Kaye and Rachel had simply drifted off to sleep, never knowing they would wake up in heaven. She wondered if Doug DeVore found any solace in that knowledge. Maybe it was a small comfort that his wife and daughter had left this earth together.

  But on Thanksgiving Day? What was God thinking?

  She’d never really gotten to know Kaye DeVore that well. They’d exchanged pleasantries whenever Kaye dropped the kids off at the daycare on her way to her job at the high school, but usually Doug was the one who delivered the children and picked them up at night when he got off work at Trevor Ashlock’s print shop in town.

  The DeVore kids were usually the last to get picked up, especially during harvest when Doug worked overtime to keep his farm going. But Mickey had never minded staying late. It wasn’t like she had a family of her own waiting for her at home. And she loved those kids.

  Especially Rachel. Sweet, angel-faced Rachel, whose eyes always seemed to hold a wisdom beyond her years. Mickey had practically mourned when Rachel started kindergarten and was only at the daycare for an hour or two after school. Now she forced herself to look at the tiny white coffin the pallbearers lifted from the second hearse. She could not make it real that the sunny six-year-old was gone.

  Through the gates, she watched Doug climb from a black towncar. One at a time, he helped his children out behind him. Carrying the baby in one arm, he tried to stretch his free arm around the other four kids, as if he could shelter them from what had happened. How he could even stand up under the weight of such tragedy was more than Mickey could imagine. And yet, for one shameful, irrational moment, she envied his grief, and would have traded places with him if it meant she’d known a love worth grieving over, or been entrusted with a child of her own flesh and blood. She shook away the thoughts, disturbed by how long she’d let herself entertain them.

  She dreaded facing Doug the next time he brought the kids to the daycare center. Maybe they wouldn’t come back. She’d heard that Kaye’s mother had cancelled her plans to winter in Florida like she usually did. Harriet Thomas would remain in Kansas and help Doug out, at least for a while. Wren Johanssen had been helping with the kids and house, too, when she could take time away from running Wren’s Nest, the little bed-and-breakfast on Main Street. Wren was like a second grandma to the kids. Thank goodness for that. Six kids had to be—

  Mickey shuddered and corrected herself. Only five now. That had to be a handful for anyone. The DeVores had gone on vacation in the middle of April last year, and with their kids out for a week, the workload was lighter, but the daycare center had been deathly quiet.

  Deathly. Even though she was alone in the car, Mickey cringed at her choice of words.

  She started at the tap on the hood of her car and looked up to see Pete motioning her through the gates. She put the car in gear and inched over the bumpy culvert. There was no turning back now. She followed the car in front of her and parked behind it next to the fence bordering the east side of the cemetery.

  A tall white tombstone in the distance caught her eye and a startling thought nudged her. The last time she’d been here for a funeral had also been the funeral of a mother and child. Trevor Ashlock’s wife, Amy, and their little boy. It would be five years come summer.

  As if conjured by her thoughts, Trevor’s green pickup pulled in beside her. Mickey watched in her side mirror as he parked, then helped his young wife climb out of the passenger side. Meg walked with the gait of an obviously pregnant woman, and Trevor put a hand at the small of her back, guiding her over the uneven sod toward the funeral tent.

  Mickey looked away. Seeing Trevor still brought a wave of sadness. Because of his profound loss, yes. But more selfishly, for her own loss. She’d fallen hard for him after Amy’s death—and had entertained hopes that he might feel the same about her. That she might be able to ease his grief. But he was too deep in grief to even notice her.

  Then Meg Anders had moved to town and almost before Mickey knew what happened, Trevor was married. He and Meg seemed very much in love, and Mickey didn’t begrudge either of them an ounce of that happiness. But it didn’t mean she was immune to a pang of envy whenever she saw them together.

  This day had to be doubly difficult for Trevor. It must be a comfort to Doug having Trevor here––someone who’d walked in his shoes and still somehow managed to get up the next morning––and the next and the next.

  Again, she had to wonder what God was thinking. Where was He when these tragedies struck? How could He stand by and let these terrible things happen to good men…the best men she knew, next to her brothers? None of it made sense. And the only One she knew to turn to for answers had stood by and let it all happen.

  Chapter 2

  Doug put the car in park and punched the garage door remote. It made a grinding noise as it settled onto the concrete floor. It seemed a terrible echo of the contraption that had lowered the caskets into the ground only an hour ago. “Go on in the house, kids. Now. And change out of your good clothes.”

  Sarah and Sadie’s faces crumpled. He hadn’t meant to bark the words, but he was too tired to apologize. Kayeleigh and Landon didn’t seem to notice, and Harley was half asleep in the car seat, sucking her thumb a m
ile a minute. He wondered how much of all this she’d picked up on.

  “Kayeleigh, get Harley, would you? Put her down for a nap if you can.”

  “She won’t sleep tonight if you put her down this late, Daddy.” Kayeleigh looked at him, as if waiting for an answer.

  When he didn’t say anything, she reached to unbuckle the baby.

  He didn’t have the strength to argue, or to hurry her along. What was there to hurry for anyway? The funeral was over. Everyone else had gone home, back to their normal lives. Decent lives they failed to appreciate and griped about for no good reason.

  He knew, because he’d been just like them. Taking for granted the blessing of a cup of coffee and the morning paper at the kitchen table. While in the bathroom down the hall, your wife stood under the shower for a few extra minutes, and your kids slept that serene sleep that only children could.

  His kids would never sleep that way again. Two nights in a row, Landon had dragged his bedding downstairs at two in the morning, knocking on Doug’s half-closed door, whimpering that he heard somebody trying to break in.

  Doug slammed the door to the old Suburban and prodded the twins toward the house. Out of habit, he started a headcount. The twins were here…Kayeleigh had Harley, Landon was already in the house. That was five. Who was miss––?

  His knees nearly buckled as it hit him afresh. Rachel. His sweet girl was missing from the lineup. Forever. It was bad enough losing Kaye, but Rachel too? How long would he look for that sixth, sweet blond head, feeling restless until all his little towheads were accounted for?

  But he hadn’t been able to keep them safe. For all his training as a volunteer firefighter and certified EMT, for all the talks he’d given at parent/teacher meetings about the dangers of carbon monoxide poisoning—none of it had saved Kaye and Rachel. He was the last man this should have happened to.

  But nobody ever thought it could happen to them. You never thought it would be your wife, your child they were carrying away in the ambulance. And then a hearse.